Andean Flowers & Froo-Froo Purses

I love to be crafty (in case anyone does not know). I especially love to be crafty when it comes to Christmas and I don't have abundant financial resources. Here are the stories behind my two latest creative projects.

FIRST PROJECT: THE ANDEAN FLOWER PAINTING

The inspiration for this watercolor painting came back in 2001 when I went to visit a national park in Merida, Venezuela. My friend Kristi took a photo of some flowers that became a part of a watercolor series that I was dreaming up. The theme of my series was something I sensed God was saying: "I have not abandoned you"... It was composed of things that I found in Venezuela that seemed forgotten/abandoned but were beautiful and something I treasured. The first painting that I finished several years ago was a pair of old brown boots. I worked and worked and worked on that painting. It felt like the sort of painting that would never be finished but thankfully I said "enough!" and called it done. My second painting was of the flowers that grew up on the side of the mountain. Beautiful bright flowers that grew in the mist and amongst the scraggley and strange terrain in the high altitude of the Andes mountains. (I started it a year or two ago). The final painting of the series will be of a young boy that I met at an orphanage in Venezuela.

Finishing the Andean flower painting didn't come easy. I'm sure it had a lot to do with how out of practice I am with painting but I was determined to finish it. I did not put the unfinished painting in storage with the rest of my things because I just couldn't bear to put it away for 3 years without being finished. Little did I know how much time I really would have! :0) My motivation for finishing this painting was to use it as a thank-you gift for my mission support team and also as Christmas gifts! It feels wonderful to have it finished.

Here's my dad posing with his copy of the painting!

SECOND PROJECT: FROO-FROO PURSES

I owe the purse project to a particular crafting project of 2005, the Walmart clearance section and my friend Macie from church. My pal Zoe and I once decided to decorate purses for a craft project. We bought canvas purse bodies and then got trim & handles for decoration. Zoe painted the body of her purse and I sewed trim and silk flowers on mine. It was a ton of fun and my purse was a particularly girlie creation that has received many compliments. I often remembered fondly how fun it was to make them. I didn't really see those purse bodies anywhere after that except in one particular Walmart clearance section. I would pass them, look at them and say: "oh, that was such a fun project." Another background note is that this summer I purchased an embroider-yourself purse kit at JoAnn fabric and discovered how easy embroidering was.

My friend Macie wrote me a little note this fall that went like this:
Thank you for every thing you do!
I hope you have a great time in Peru
We all will miss you!
Your hats, purses and your great personality
You did Kid Stuf and did karaoke.
We will treasure everything you do!

Hmmm... purses...hmmm... The mention of the purses got me thinking and I realized that purses were the solution to my need for a gift that could be creative and inexpensive! There were 8 purse bodies available in the clearance craft section at Walmart. I bought them all, along with trim and embroidery thread and d-rings (for handles). My biggest dilemma was figuring out how to make handles that I didn't have pay $5.00 for. I bought material and filler cord and hoped that I could figure out how to make handles! I sewed everything by hand and I had to figure out how to sew the handles and turn them inside out. I felt so victorious when I discovered the usefulness of a safety pin in doing this! Phew!

In the end, I made 8 purses. Some had buttons and trim and some were embroidered. The hardest thing that I embroidered was a asian looking bird on a branch. I had so much fun coming up with designs but unfortunately the purses took me way longer than I imagined (surprise! surprise!). At least 5 of them went to my old Stillwaters roomies and I had a moment of panic the day that I was finishing them up (of course up to the last minute!). I didn't have enough d-rings for the handles and not enough time to go out, get more and be finished! So, I broke down and bought some handles. Unfortunately, one set didn't match the purse it was intended for. Frantically, I sewed a pair of handles in less than 10 minutes!! Phew... again one of my projects is more work than I intended. :0) After all that, I found the missing d-rings upstairs in another bag. Silly me! My fingers were sore after all that embroidering and I didn't want to see another purse for a while. All in all, it was a fun and successful project!

Here are pictures of some of my purses:



It was tons of fun making the middles of these flowers with bits of ribbon!

Here are the lovely Stillwaters ladies with their purses!

Sweet Times at Yuletide

I'm so glad Jesus was born and I'm so glad that we have a holiday to celebrate that. I don't know if He was actually born on December 25th and I don't know how much of our holiday trappings have pagan roots but I don't think that is so important. The most important thing is that we actually take the time to celebrate Him!

This year has felt especially sweet for me. I think it's because I wasn't originally planning on being here. Like a surprise bonus added onto the year 2006. Wonderful! Thank you Lord! I love your type of bonuses.

The Christmas festivities of my life started on Friday the 22nd. We had a Shekinah reunion at Renee's parents' house and we had a sweet time together chowing down on old favorites like baby hot dogs and funny cake. Renee, Lashonda, Brie, Ailene, Bekah, Danae, Cheryl, Sarah were there as were my FIVE Shekinah scrapbook albums (I'm not even done those yet!). We reminisced over the past year and enjoyed each other's company.

the Shekinah gals, together again!

Christmas with my family was on Saturday the 23rd and started out with a grumpy grandmom Kleinschmidt. Dad and I were late getting to her house in Hammonton, NJ (which was my fault of course, you would think that with all the extra time I've had since September that I would be so on top of things and never late....sigh). We enjoyed our reheated food and then spent time opening gifts. We gave Katelyn & Judah (actually Wendy because Judah really didn't seem to care about anything besides sleeping) their gifts first and then everyone else. Present opening at grandmom's always seems a little chaotic. It was a good time with my family and I even got some dancing time in with Katelyn!

John, Wendy, Judah & Katelyn (kinda - she refused to pose!)


Everyone enjoys their gifts: Dad, his socks and grandmom the calender with pics of Judah & Katelyn.

Christmas Eve started out early for me because I had to be at my church at 8 am before the start of the first service. We had three services in sucession and it was exciting to be a part of it even though I was only dancing during one song. I and two other gals from my church were the dancing angels during a song that included a pagaent. It was a little squishy...okay...it was very squishy up in the front. My church is not huge but that morning we had 40 adult choir members, 70 member children's choir, a drama which included 7 people and a table and chairs plus band and etc. Overall, everything went well despite having to dance very close to someone's bass and the scariness of trying to dance around veils with tripping over them. Thankfully, we didn't run into any wisemen or hit too many people in the front row with our veils! :0) We even had one wiseman who wanted to dance with us.

That night I met up with Starr and we went to her church service. We had dinner together and watched "It's a Wonderful Life." Can you guess? I fell asleep right in the middle. It was quite an exciting day! I stayed over at Starr & Heidi's that night. In the morning, Heidi and I had a yummy Christmas breakfast of crepes with banans and chocolate and got ready for the day. We had dinner with Starr's son Ross and his family and exchanged presents. It was a very sweet time and I ate TOO MUCH!!!!
I spontaneously stayed overnight again and Heidi and I hung out the next day. It always feels somewhat like being at home when I spend time with Starr & Heidi. I'm sure it's because I used to live with them for 6 years.

Starr & I have a seed-spitting contest at the sink!

Speaking of being with people that I've lived with before, this past Friday was our Stillwaters get together. Margie, Renee, Bekah, Emilie and I stayed over at Mandy & Rosie's apartment in Germantown. It was such a fun time! We made calzones together and exchanged gifts. Of course there were the typical gifts of underwear and socks! Yay for a reunion! The interesting thing is that all of us have never lived together at the same time. Margie got married and moved out and then we had Emilie for a year before the END. But we all get along and it was a blast! I didn't get too much sleep because Rosie the cat was very hyper. On the bed, off the bed, running over Emilie's face, eating the plant, etc. Margie was very concerned about it! Oh well, I think if I was Rosie, I would have been excited too!

Well, that's the tale of my Christmas adventures! I'm so glad that I was able to experience all these sweet times with dear friends and family!

Yay for the Christmas bonus!

Cracker gets a new heart!

The saga of my aging car is not over yet and I'm sure you would all be dreadfully interested in reading about it!

Read on then, oh brave soul....

Recently my car's been losing power and not starting. A couple of weeks ago I had a hair appointment and I went out to start my car at 2pm. No go! After visions of horrible things being wrong with my car, I called AAA and they came to jump it. It worked and the guy told me to clean off the corrosion on the connector bolt (disclaimer: I don't know proper car verbage). Well, I cleaned off the corrosion like my dad taught me with some baking soda and a toothbrush (it's amazing how hard it is to find an old toothbrush in the Ensinger house...I think Mandy would be appalled!).

Cracker was a little grumpy the rest of the week when I started him but at least he started. Well, come Friday night when I needed to rush off to dance practice at church, it didn't start! Bummer!!! Thankfully, my nice roommate, Esther lent me her car and Cheryl's dad jumped Cracker the next day. He told me that I should get the battery checked to see if I needed a new one. Did I listen? Not until my car wouldn't start again on Monday. Thankfully, Mr. Ensinger left me his jumper cables and being the empowered woman that I am :0) I jumped Cracker with Esther's car.

I took Cracker to a garage to get the battery checked and the test said the battery was BAD! Oh bummer a bad battery! They wanted to charge me $75 for a new one and I (being the resourceful person that I am) decided to find an alternative option. My alternative option was getting my own battery and having someone put it in for me. Who would do such a task? Who would brave the battery acid, the corrosion, the aging interior of my delapidated (I've always wanted to use that word) car???? Who? Who else but Luke Scheetz, fixer of helicopters, husband of Margie and former "honorary" Stillwaters boyfriend???!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, so Luke pretty much dislikes my car strongly and has a very bad opinion about it. I think it has something to do with it being an economy foreign made car. Who knows but he agreed to operate on Cracker. Thankfully, I was able to get a battery at Wal-mart for $35! Luke changed it in a flash (it looks so easy, anyone who has tools could do it!) and then was going to try to tighten one of my belts. Fortunately (for him) he changed his mind and decided not to get into it! Ah, the poor person who will have to deal with Cracker's quirks in the future.

Ahh...now Cracker has a new economy brand heart (it may not last 11 years like the last one but do I care?) and thankfully it didn't cost me too much to replace it.

Thank you Luke, disliker of Trackers but changer of batteries!

And thank you Lord, that it was just a battery.

Wreathed in Joy

I decided that since I'm going to be around for the holidays, that I might as well go at it with full force! So, I'm participating in all sorts of seasonal activities. Woohoo for Christmas! This past weekend, I went to a cookie swap.<< cookie swap, cookie swap...hoorah for a cookie swap! >> In case you've never heard of one of those before: it's where everyone brings some cookies and you take home all the different cookies that you want to. I made chocolate cookie pretzels and cream cheese crescents and came home with sugar, chocolate nobake, cranberry white chocolate chip, triple chocolate chunk, chocolate cream cheese, and regular chocolate chip cookies. whew cookies!! The sad thing is that three days later there are only 3 cookies left at our house.

My other seasonal activity this weekend was making wreaths and arrangements with the Finger family. For the past couple of weeks, I've had a strong desire to create wreath! I don't know if you've ever had those strong creative urges but I have them quite often...it usually involves some sort of impractical creative project. Thankfully, I was just in time for the Finger family wreath/greens weekend. Two of the women whom I used to work with at Printworks reserve a weekend in December specifically in order to create things for the holidays from fresh greens. So, I got to join in on the fun and learn how to properly construct a wreath.

Here are the steps to wreath making according to Momma Mary Finger:

STEP 1: Prepare your hands!
Slather lotion on your hands and fingers to protect you from the onslaught of sap created by the fresh greens. Put bandaids on your fingers to protect your tender flesh from sharp wires. (you may want to cover your lap with a drop cloth to prevent sap on your lap)

STEP 2: Create a bag o' bundles
This step is the most monotonous one. You gather greens together (pine, boxgloves, etc) and make bundles by twisting wire around the stems. Watch out for sharp wire edges --sometimes they like to bite (like what happened to my thumb! ouch). Bundles greens, bundle greens, bundle greens until you have a brown bag 3/4 of the way full. With your bag o' bundles you are ready to go to the next step!

STEP 3: Attach the bundles to a wreath ring
Take your metal or wooden wreath ring and tie some green string around it. Put your first bundle on the ring and separate the greens in order to wrap the thread around them and then around the frame. Repeat the wrapping of the string at a different place in the greens and then wrap a couple of times at the bottom of the bundle. Take another bundle and depending on how bushy/thick or thin you would like your wreath place it next to the attached bundle on the frame (the closer the bundle is to the other bundle, the thicker and bushier the wreath will be). Repeat the whole wrapping process again and again and again until the entire wreath is WREATHED IN GREENS! when you get to the end, tie your string to the place where the original string was tied on and cut of the extra.

STEP 4: Protect the back
In order to protect the surface wherever you will hang the wreath, you may want to cover the back of the wreath frame. Hot glue small peices of green to the back of the frame.

STEP 5: Embellish the Wreath
Now comes the fun and creative part: Decorating your wreath. Before getting to far along in your decorating, you may want to take a pipe cleaner and create a loop on the frame for hanging purposes. You can decorate the wreath with ribbon, pine cones, glittery decorations, fake berries or whatever you would like. It's amazing how creative you can get with a wreath!

STEP 6: Enjoy it!
Find a lovely spot to display your wreath and it should last until the end of the holiday season. In the end, you can remove the dead greens and decorations and reuse the wreath ring next year.


Yay for wreaths! I ended up making two wreaths and an arrangement that looks like a Christmas tree. I put one wreath on the Ensinger front door and gave the other to my brother and sister-in-law. I still need to find a home for the arrangement because it wouldn't last long in the Ensinger's house with Tony and Aaron the cat on the loose!

Judah Caeden Kleinschmidt

I'd like to introduce you all to my nephew:
Judah Caeden Kleinschmidt
born on Wednesday, November 29th, at 4:20pm weighing 9lb. 1/2 oz., and 22 inches long.

I drove to Harrisburg yesterday to meet him and hang out with my brother and his family. My neice Katelyn (who is two) and I (An' Cayee) had lots of fun playing together! Our toy of choice yesterday was a blanket. We each had one and we pretended that they were our coats and that we had to go outside. Of course everytime we did something, Katelyn would shout, "do it again!" :0) We also had fun dancing together but An' Cayee's arms got a little tired when Katelyn thought it would be more fun for me to dance with her in my arm so that she could swing a blanket around.

It was great to see Katelyn's interaction with "babee Judaah." She kept wanting to kiss him but unfortunately she has a cold so they had to deflect her kisses to the top of his head. She also wanted to hold him (she kept on insisting upon it while her mom was trying to nurse Judah, I had to distract Katelyn with a ball). I think my brother and his wife will definitely have some attention and sharing issues to deal with but Katelyn seems to be adjusting pretty well!

It was so wonderful to spend the day with them and I'm glad that God decided to bless me with the chance to meet Judah before I went to Peru! Yay!

Is Baby Judah already living up to his name as a "Praise Warrior"? ;0)

Put the Lights on the Tree

The Christmas season has arrived! I found out from the mission agency that I won't be leaving until after the holidays which means that I get a chance to celebrate Christmas in PA. It's a lovely gift to be able to celebrate this season with friends and family. I'm excited about spending more time with my neice and nephew! I'm excited about the Stillwaters reunion...my dear friends Renee and Bekah will be back from lands afar! I wasn't planning on Christmas in PA but I'm glad for it.

As many of you know, I've been living at the Ensinger household since August. My friend Cheryl's brother, Ryan really likes Christmas. He has a 10 ft tall Christmas tree with over 2000 lights on it sitting in his house's entryway room (which has tall ceilings and a huge front window). It took him 2-3 hrs to put the lights on and despite the cuts on his fingers, he says that it's worth it all. I'm not quite so sure but it looks impressive and we certainly don't need to turn any lights on in that room. Yes, reading by the glow of the very bright Christmas tree... ahhhh Christmas...

You know this all reminds me of a certain Sufjan Stevens song. Follow this link for a fun video! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OYQFeZFLyM4&eurl=

God's Mucho Mas Mejor Plan

Today my friend Mandy and I went to a church in Lancaster to hear Ruben Carasco, the pastor from Cusco speak. He and his wife, Haydee have been in Pennsylvania this month speaking at different churches. I never would have imagined meeting them for the first time outside of Peru but God's ways are mucho mas mejor (very much better - it's not really grammatically correct to say this in English or Spanish but it reminds me of my Swiss friend Lilian :0). I really liked them and I look forward to getting to know them even more within the next three years. Mandy said that she felt much better "leaving me in their hands." Ruben was joking around with her about what kind of protection they could offer me...the police, a bodyguard...etc...

This morning Ruben talked about vision and how when God gives us vision, impossible things happen and He shows that He is the God not just of theology but the God of the practical. One thing that Ruben spoke this morning was that we can say: "God is the God of the Impossible" all we like in church but do we actually live like that? Do we make room in our lives for God to do the impossible or do we hem ourselves in so comfortably so that we don't even give Him the chance?

I was so excited this morning because I could understand pretty much all of Ruben's sermon! Of course, my talking to them in Spanish was a little pathetic. Thankfully, Mandy was there to help fill in the words. I can't wait for language school in Arequippa!! When I was in Venezuela, everything was so overwhelming! I remember sitting in church and missing half of what was being said. It's as though you are living in fog. I was so frustrated some times and thought I would never get past the fog!

It feels good to be going to Peru with an understanding of Spanish and knowing that I'll be able to catch up faster because of that. I can't wait to work on all the details that I need to fill in the gap! To dig into those verbs and I can't wait to be surrounded by people speaking Spanish. Okay, so I'll stop looking at it so "romantically"... Yes, it's going to be hard sometimes and I'm sure I'm going to make a fool of myself. I'm SURE I'll make a lot of mistakes! woohoo for mistakes...

I found out from the mission agency that I can leave when I reach 80% of my support. It's great because I'm at 70% right now!! Perhaps this means that Peru is right around the corner. It's going to feel so surreal when I actually get on the plane and finally say goodbye to everyone here. I'm so excited and even though I'm torn about being here for Christmas, I really hope I get to leave some time next month.

We'll see! Through this whole thing I've learned not to hold onto my plans with a tight closed fist but with an open palm up to Jesus while saying: Lord, whatever you want!
Afterall....

HIS PLAN IS MUCHO MAS MEJOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Trail Much Sought After

On Wednesday I walked the last section on the Perkiomen trail. My last section was from Oaks to Audubon and God blessed me with a gorgeous day. Even though the trees have lost most of their leaves, sections of this trek were still pretty with the twisting bare branches and leaf laden ground. I felt victorious about completing the trail until I tried to get back to my car. I had parked in the Perkiomen Valley Park and walked across the field to get to the path. I thought that on the way back I would just catch the trail back to where it connected to the park instead of walking across the soggy field. Well, they were doing construction and many areas were fenced off. So, I walked past the field on the path... I walked by the park...I saw my car and I kept walking hoping that there would be an entrance into the park. I kept walking until I walked passed the park and realized that if I kept walking I would soon be in Valley Forge!!! It was so torturous to see my car but not be able to get to it because there were two sets of fences between. I momentarily considered climbing the fences but realized that if I was caught they probably wouldn't care that I was tired and didn't want to walk all the way back the trail and then across the soggy field! I turned around and walked back down the path and then across the field. By the time I got to my car, I didn't feel so victorious anymore, just tired and glad to be done walking and sooooo glad to be back at my car.

I really am so glad for being able to walk the Perkiomen Trail. I'm glad that God has given me the time to take such long walks. It's amazing how the fresh air and being with the Lord in nature clears your head and helps you to have peace. Yesterday I was feeling very antsy and impatient so I took a walk on the old Banbury trail (a short trek compared to the Perkiomen Trail adventures). God filled my heart with peace and assured me that this time of waiting has been good and that He is building things in me that He will use later in my life.

Praise God for walks...
for fall leaves and woods...
praise God for quiet talks with Him along the way...
praise God for warm weather and for exercise!!!

"But those who wait on the LORD shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles,
They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint."
Isaiah 40:31 (nkjv)


A map of the trail that I've walked. It's 20 miles long; so that means that I've walked at least 40 miles this fall! :0)



Two reptile friends that I met along the way!

TRUST

Here are some pictures from the Perkiomenville to Green Lane section of the Perkiomen Trail. I've completed one end of the trail and I just have one more section until I've walked the whole thing!


"I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation." Psalm 13:5


"The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song." Psalm 28:7


"Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul." Psalm 143:8


"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6


"Surely God is my salvation; I will trust and not be afraid. The LORD, the LORD, is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation." Isaiah 2:12

Not Alone...

I was wrong in my last post. I am not alone here in front of this wall. I am surrounded by friends and family who are helping me to chip...chip...chip away. How could I forget them? They are the reason that there is any chipping going on at all. Whether through one time gifts, words of encouragement or commitment of support, they are helping to remove this wall.

This is the best part about support raising: the ones who come to help. The people that God raises up to and bless the work He is going to do in and through me in Peru. This is why in a way, I was glad that God called me to serve as a missionary who raised support. Because I knew that it meant that God was going to use others in my life to bring about his calling for me. Isn't that awesome? I heard a teaching long ago that talked about how we cannot truly discover and walk into our calling in God's kingdom apart from our connection with the rest of His body, the church.

It reminds me of something I wrote in a letter when I was going out on another adventure 4 years ago to a different South American country. It was a story of a little girl with a large banner that had her life's calling written on it. Well, she couldn't unroll it herself and the whole could not be unfurled without the help of other people. It's still true and I am glad that this whole thing can't happen with just me.

How could I have forgotten so easily? Thank you friends!

I am not alone.

Perfect Timing

Chip, chip, chip....chip, chip, chippin' away! I feel like a little girl standing in front of a massive wall. My job is to remove the wall but all I've got is a hammer and chisel. So, chip, chip, chip... and it sure is taking a while. It seems that this wall is never going away. Even though I'm over halfway, I still feel like I'm chipping, chipping, chipping....slowly. Maybe I should just appreciate each peice that comes off but mostly I feel tired of this wall.

Last night I was being planned into my church's Christmas Eve service. They want me to dance and be a part of the drama. Wait... am I still going to be here at Christmas? I don't know really and I'm a little tired of my life being so up in the air. I would like to be in Peru in December but do I know if my support will all be in or not. It sure is coming in slowly... chip...chip...chip...

I know that God has His timing in all of this and that I'll get to Peru when He wants me to. I do TRUST Him! After all, He sees the big picture better than I do and He knows what is BEST. However, I'm a little concerned about the way this timing thing is working out. The original plan was for me to go to language school for three months and be in Cusco in time for the beginning of the new school season in early March. Now time is getting a little crunchy and I'm praying that God will work everything out the way that He wants to.

This season of waiting has been good for me. But it sure is hard not to be antsy and instead to really be content in the middle of it. I pray that the Lord will give me strength to enjoy this time and depend on His timing and not mine.

Oh, here are more pictures from my latest Perkiomen trail section. This is from Collegeville to Audubon.








I love the reflection of the trees in the water!

Oh the Joy of Autumn!

Since I have so much extra time these days, I've had the chance to do lots of fun fall activities. It's an added blessing to be able to enjoy another autumn here in PA! I love fall!!!! Fall leaves fall!!! Dance and spin on your merry journey down to earth!!


THE PUMPKIN FARM
Ahhhhh!! Who could resist going on a hay ride and searching for the perfect pumpkin?! My friends, Steve, Sunny and Serena live near Elizabethtown and one weekend we visited a pumpkin farm in order to do just that.


Here's the Lanford family on our hay ride


Here I am with my conquest: a pumpkin! I had to go on a pumpkin hunt because the weeds were so tall and it was hard to find pumpkins. ((Oh where oh where oh where is my pumpkin!))*

*Note: any time there is a ((something)) it indicates that whatever is inside should be sung.


CLIMBING HAWK MOUNTAIN
My old Stillwaters' roomie, Mandy and I decided to go on a hiking adventure on Hawk Mountain. We went with Mandy's dad binoculars and created our own personalized hiking route from the available trails. The problem came when one part of our route took us on the "most difficult" blue trail. We picked up the blue trail off of the main outlook (where I saw an eagle!!) and we couldn't find it at first until I realized that it dropped right off the side of the lookout! Although this trail was supposed to be used by experienced hikers, Mandy and I forged ahead and literally climbed down the mountain over huge boulders. It was slow going and a little scary at times but we made it, crossed over to the red trail and went in search of the orange trail. We were walking along our merry way when I realized something was amiss: no red marks on the trees!! Somehow, thankfully we intercepted our trail somewhere and climbed, climbed, climbed up the mountain. Phew! We were out of breath... what a hike! I can tell you that my arms and legs were pretty sore that week.





WALKING, WALKING, WALKING
How could I forget all my lovely fall walks? I've been taking long walks at Peace Valley Park and the Perkiomen Trail (my goal is to walk every part of this trail). It's a wonderful way to get in shape before I go, memorize verses and talk to God in the middle of beauteous scenery.

Here's some autumn snapshots!



Peace Valley Park



The Perkiomen Trail

Why Am I Still Here?

The question of why has been bothering me recently. Not because I am doubting God's plan or anything. My heart is still clinging to a deep trust even as I wonder why. It's good to ask "why" sometime because it makes you evaluate where you are at and where your faith and trust is resting.

I'm still here and there has to be some reason! Unfortunately, that leads me to more questions:

1. All a part of God's plan!
Does God have some mysterious reasoning in all of this? Like something that He wants to teach me or connections that He wants me to make? Is this extra time a part of a gift to me to allow me to enjoy another fall, some in-between time and the chance to scrapbook my life from the past 7 years?

2. Culpa mia (the culprit looks like me)
Or am I still here because I'm crummy at this support raising thing? Have I been so bad at connecting with people in the last 4 years that now I'm paying the consequences of not having enough supporters? Am I afraid to ask people? Does pride keep me from asking for support? Is there more that I should be doing or should have done??

3. The Devil Made me do it
Maybe Satan is doing stuff to hold me back from what God wants. After all, why would he want me to commit my life to full-time missions? It's no good news for his plans if my full-time focus is telling people about Jesus. Maybe he has sent out his nasty little demons to distract people from supporting me, to have them lose their response cards or just forget to respond!

Okay so the last one was a little silly but I wonder if my answer to the question of "Why?" should be "all of the above." Is there a piece of truth in all of these answers? There could be and maybe it's okay to not exactly know why.

Perhaps my concern should be more on what I'm doing with this time. Am I continuing to trust? Am I using my time wisely? Am I seeking the Lord to make sure that I'm being obedient in all this? I can ask questions all that I want but the most important thing is my heart's attitude. Will I choose to be grumpy about the delay or choose to rejoice in what God is doing in the delay?

I pray that my response will please the heart of the God who has called me, keeps me and continues guide me along the way.

Cracker the Tracker Blows a Gasket

Hallelujah, my car no longer sounds like a lawnmower! Thankfully, it was only a blown gasket that caused my car to sound like the exhaust system was gonna explode at any minute. Now I can again stealthfully glide through the streets of Souderton without letting the whole world know that I'm coming!

I'm going to have to say goodbye to my faithful Tracker as I head off to another country. My little car really has served me well for the past eight years. There have only been a few major problems along the way. Of course, the older it gets, the more strange things start happening. So, in honor of my Geo buddy, I've compiled a list of Cracker's Perks & Quirks

Here are Cracker the Tracker's Perks & Quirks:

Top Ten Perks:

1. It's a red convertible
2. You can ascend and descend from it instead of feeling like you are crawling into a hole.
3. It's spacious on the inside even though it looks compact on the outside
4. It has a new catalytic converter
5. The sound system/cd player still works
6. The windows are large -- you can see the world!
7. The horn sounds so cute!
8. It's got a fun "oh, snot!"bar on the passenger side for when you feel like off-roading it
9. The driver's side door will never fall off again
10. It's easy to parallel park and do 3 pt turns!


Top Ten Quirks:

1. It's a convertible so you can hear the sounds of the highway -- woosh
2. the back door has been permanently shut since 2003 and "the incident with the mice"
3. the gaskets have blown twice within the last 5000 miles
4. it's got a lot of the original wires and parts that aren't available except in junk yards
5. a cd player + a vehicle where you can feel the road = skips (just ask the Derstine bros.)
6. the drivers window sometimes has to be fidgeted with in order to get up or down
7. the horn works only sometimes (not at this moment but it may work tomorrow)
8. don't try to off-road it because the car is only 2 wheel drive and will get stuck!
9. the driver's side door is welded on...so don't smash it in an accident
10. the check engine light likes to come on and off depending on your mileage

Peacefully Leaping into the Unknown

Today I took a walk around Peace Valley Park. This time I was prepared with my water bottle and sneakers (unlike when Bekah and I decided to spontaneously go around the lake and two hours later we made it to the end with blisters and dehydration in tow). It was such a beautiful day! The leaves were dancing, the skies were blue and so clear and the wind was blowing....what rich colors -- greens and blues! The lake was being blown about by the wind. It the middle were the ridges on the water but the edges where the wind was hitting it directly, the water looked like glass -- smooth and straight. As I looked at the lake I thought of the peace that comes when the Spirit is directly moving in your life. The places of the lake where the wind was hitting directly were smooth and I was praying for the kind of peace that was a direct result of the Spirit whispering so close to my heart.

What a season of trust God has brought me to! I am totally dependent on Him -- He's called me to go to Peru and I'm waiting to see how God will bring it into reality. It's such a burden to think about raising the funds that you need to live for 3 years. I guess the point is to realize that it's not my burden to carry but His. He is the one who called me and He is the one who will provide! So, I've said goodbye to my old life and there's no turning back. I took a leap of faith and now I'm just waiting to see how God will bring it all about.

Here's an appropriate quote for this time in my life (provided by the aforementioned friend) :

"The way of trust is a movement into obscurity, into the undefined, into ambiguity, not into some predetermined, clearly delineated plan for the future. The next step discloses itself only out of a discernment of God acting in the present moment. The reality of naked trust is the life of a pilgrim who leaves what is nailed down, obvious and secure, and walks into the unknown without any rational explanation to justify the decision or guarantee the future. Why? Because God has signaled the movement and offered it His presence and His promise."

Brennan Manning, Ruthless Trust

Shekinah Memories

Here are some pictures that my friend pulled from the video of the Shekinah Anniversary Concert. I think they are fantastic!

Benediction

Creation Calls

Grace Like Rain